"Dude, macaroni and cheese is food of the Gods." — Haley James[-Scott]
• CURRENTLY
MOOD: bored FEELING: rejected LISTENING TO: Will & Grace WATCHING: Will & Grace TEXTING: no one IMing: no one OBSESSING OVER: nothing LOVING: undecided LOATHING: getting up early
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7.12.08 • Drums Along the Rockies 7.13.08 • Work 7.14.08 • Work 7.15.08 • Work 7.16.08 • Work 7.18.08 • JR's Birthday 7.18.08 • Dany's Birthday 7.19.08 • Andrew's Birthday 7.20.08 • My Birthday :)
This past week has been absolutely insane, I've been going from practice in the morning to work to fucking musical practice and I've been extremely tired lately, it's been so hard. This next week at work is kinda going to be nice, but I won't know what to do with my days when I AM in town next week... I dunno, maybe it'll get me to finally get some rest and to get back to working on my sites since I haven't been home long enough to even update with news.
I know this doesn't help, but last night at like 10 I decided I wanted to go to the movies and go see The Dark Knight with Chris and Shayla (they're dating now... ). So the movie starts about 12:15 with all the stupid previews (which one of them was NOT for the 6th Harry Potter movie ) and... I'm losing my train of thought right now... I'm running on three hours of sleep [...] OK yeah, overall the movie was kick-ass. I actually kinda liked the way these writers created how Harvey "Two-Face" became Two-Face, it was much more out there than what they did with Tommy Lee Jones' Two-Face in Batman Forever. The only thing I disliked out of the whole movie was the fact that Christian Bale made his voice a little too low that made it sound scratchy, it got annoying after a while.
So I was going to post this a couple days ago, but I was so tired that I didn't feel like typing. OK, so... I have this friend and he's really good-looking. We randomly started hanging out this summer and I kinda started to think that he liked me, then after we got home from the Pikes Peak or Bust Parade in Springs, he and two other band members went to hang out for a while and I didn't really notice it because the other two were hanging on each other (the other two are male and female if you weren't able to notice) so I didn't think of anything, then he and the other girl that was in the group started hanging out like multiple times a day for the rest of the week and she got his number. I finally asked her the next Monday and she confessed that they started dating the Thursday before... I said, "fuck, hanging out for TWO days? That was fast..." So like I'm not really jealous because I'm not one to get jealous, but I got kind of offended when neither of them told me that they were dating until four days after they began.
The worst part of it is the fact that whenever the girlfriend not around, he sticks close to me (and I swear it that at least half of it is flirting) and whenever she IS around, they hang on each other and do so much PDA, it's disgusting. Last night at the movie, like, they were macking on each other throughout the whole movie and I got the feeling back that I became the third wheel once again... and get this, when we went to the drive-in like two weeks ago, he was complaining to me how he's lonely and how he feels all out of place while the four other teenagers we were hanging out with were doing like "couple-ish" stuff (like an orgy in the back of the SUV they were in) and I confessed to him that I'm always the third wheel and how I get tired of it. I figured like when I'm hanging around with the two that he wouldn't make me feel like that, but he is and it's kinda pissing me off. I don't mind hanging out with them, but when they start being all "couple-like", I just ignore them and if they're walking one way, I'll walk the other, but then after she leaves, he runs back to me... what can you say about that?
I knew the happiness I've been feeling wasn't going to last very long, it was just too great of a time that I've been having and now I'm dropping back down to where I have been my whole life... I finally started hanging out with friends younger than me and it's been so great, I haven't been rejected to hang out yet... that is until tonight when I decided that I'm going to change my appearance tomorrow and that I need some input with what I'm going to do before I do it, but no one is able to go with me tomorrow afternoon to do it and it's just a repeat of what happened to me last Monday, which I actually haven't been thinking about lately because I've been so happy with my new group of younger friends, but now I'm starting to get a little rejected by them as well.
It's getting old... very old with people toying with my emotions like this.
I can now easily say that I don't have a best friend anymore. There was a really really bad incident that happened and I don't want to elaborate too much on it because it might cause me to go back into my pissed off and depressed mood that I've been in since Saturday night.
OK so I text Amy on Saturday night with "2 days!!!" because we would be in Denver watching The Veronicas in concert and she failed to tell me until replying to this text saying that she can't go because she has to work (AFTER she got the day off) and that her math teacher sprung a test on her and that she "couldn't get out of either of them". So I began asking anyone and everyone about going to the concert with me. Monday morning comes around and I still didn't have anyone to go, so I left practice at about 8:30 to go to her house, wake her ass up and drag her kicking and screaming from her house to Denver with me... and well, it didn't even go that way. I rung the doorbell about 5 times and finally someone came to the door and it wasn't her, it was her bitch of a mother who practically cussed me out for waking her up (she's Morman so she doesn't actually cuss) and shut the door in my face.
I then called Amy, waking her up (or so she says) pleading her to go with me and all she says is "I'm sorry... [blah blah blah]" and I start crying on the phone because I'm so pissed at her and I told her "well then you better find someone to go to the concert with me because I've been trying for two days to find someone to go and I haven't found anyone to go." She then replies with "I'm sorry" once more and I started getting tired of hearing those two words from her and everyone else so I hung up on her and threw my phone on the passenger seat because I was sitting in my car outside of her house.
I went to lunch to Do Drop-In with Andrea, Matt, Chris, and Stephen and Chris said that he would be willing to go and I figured "hey, i'm out of options and he offered, let's do it" and we were planning on leaving at about 3:30, then I never get a text from him so I text him and turns out that he fell asleep and when he woke up he was already 10 minutes late to work so he was a no go for the concert either and by that time it was about 5:30, the concert started in an hour in a city that takes about an hour and forty-five minutes to get to, not including hitting rush hour in Springs so I just decide not to go... it was a total waste of $73 but when I do decide to face that bitch who ditches me any chance she gets, I'm going to tell her that she owes me $47 for the damn tickets and after she pays me for the tickets (which she WILL! I will make fucking sure of it) I never want to speak or hear from her ever again.
This was the last straw with her and I'm finally finished with her shit and always planning to do something with me then ditching me with a lame excuse to go fucking around with her boyfriend. I've had it and I'm going to make sure no one takes advantage of me and my fucking money like that ever again.
Who knew I've been so busy this past week that I haven't had time to do really anything on the computer. Not just that, but I've been falling asleep randomly... speaking of being tired, I'm like extremely tired right now. I had to open this morning at work and I was there until 4pm and I was at the drive-in last night so I didn't get home until like 1:30.
I'm not real talkative right now, but I'm really hungry and tired and I also still have to finish my Stats homework...
OK, so I wasn't able to login to WordPress and I didn't want to attempt to uninstall and reinstall it, so I uninstalled it and just uploaded and updated a couple of these pages and I'm now back to CuteNews.
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). So the movie starts about 12:15 with all the stupid previews (which one of them was NOT for the 6th Harry Potter movie 
) and... I'm losing my train of thought right now... I'm running on three hours of sleep [...] OK yeah, overall the movie was kick-ass. I actually kinda liked the way these writers created how Harvey "Two-Face" became Two-Face, it was much more out there than what they did with Tommy Lee Jones' Two-Face in Batman Forever. The only thing I disliked out of the whole movie was the fact that Christian Bale made his voice a little too low that made it sound scratchy, it got annoying after a while.